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Pause, Look, Trust
August 2021 Update: I’m back & I’m building a new version of me. A version that looks everywhere for the light that will carry me. The photo above was intended for some exciting, “can-do all” type of blog post that was going to be some version of perfect to reflect the perfect sunrise that occurred […]
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Dear Adoption, You Are a Controversy Disguised
? Dear Adoption, You Are a Controversy Disguised When people asked me how old I was when I found out I was adopted, I laugh. I have always known. It’s sort of impossible to not know I am adopted. I am a dark-skinned Indian girl with long, black hair. This is a stark difference to…
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An Unbirthday
** TW: mention of mental health and suicidal ideation Unbirthday? *un: opposite of the original PSA for all: I don’t celebrate my legal birthday. No, I didn’t want you to remember, so don’t feel bad for not knowing. It’s actually just preferred that it’s just like any other day. Of course when I was a […]
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March Mood: 2021 🥰✨
👋🏾 Hello, I know it’s been FOREVER since I’ve updated. This year has been a year. ☝🏾 Here’s ☝🏾 a sunset photo with pretty colors to ease your eyes. I’ve come to the conclusion that March always feels stinky. One year, March was the month I left my job abruptly due to a mental breakdown. […]
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Nostalgia: November 10th, 2020
Reminded and recounted that childhood held the perfect version of me A version of me Blissfully unaware of unrecoverable truth No voice yet, no desire, no inquiry Memory erased A knowing The knowing of before an unknown truth Past self identity lost Identity was lost and I rebuilt anew those who forget assume I do […]
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Gratitude on my terms: November 18th, 2019
Unforced, organic, joyous time spent Feeling full or unfulfilled Broken hearts will lament The sides within argue in vain Today I find peace despite all this pain The waged within fights for the same cause As if I realize I’m not sure at all Gracious for connections made Love seals a bond in which time […]
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A Week’s Change
One Week Before: As I sit here in the stillness of my thoughts. Tired eyes, open mind. I wonder about the week or day before I left India for my new home, America. Did my 2 year old self panic at the prospect of not obtaining proper paperwork? Did she worry about how in the […]
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Expecting the Unexpected: Moving to Jakarta
Yes! I’m still moving TO INDONESIA. Yes, I’m aware of the many challenges that lie ahead. No, I can’t believe this is how things are rolling out. Making the biggest life change during COVID is the least ideal scenario, but I made this decision prior to any knowledge of a pandemic. In February, I KNEW […]