Yes! I’m still moving TO INDONESIA. Yes, I’m aware of the many challenges that lie ahead. No, I can’t believe this is how things are rolling out. Making the biggest life change during COVID is the least ideal scenario, but I made this decision prior to any knowledge of a pandemic. In February, I KNEW this decision was right and I will continue to “go with the flow” because this is the journey!
Why Jakarta? Why now?
The simple answer is fate led me here. For quite some time now, I’ve wanted to travel abroad to teach and live internationally. I was unsure of a specific location except I favored locations that were close to India. I always had the nagging desire but my doubt and emotions blocked any potential effort to search. I honestly know now that any other year prior to now would not have been the time. Could I wait longer? Not really. For my mental health, I couldn’t wait any longer to pursue this dream. I will continue to seek this dream even through the uncertainties.
After all, life is all about uncertainties. When a loved one was sick, when I was battling sickness, when I started to feel mentally incapable of grasping life, I was completely unprepared. And I came through those.
I always told myself I’d fail. I had a lot of bullet points in the list of “Why I’ll fail at this” Confronting my unhappiness allowed me to eliminate those reasons. The angst I felt in the process of deciding to search for international jobs led me to growing bigger than doubt. I’ve known that failure is not an option. Not this time.
Coronavirus is very trying. How can I plan for genuine interactions with others during such a chaotic time? What will the future look like? How am I sure I’m making the right choice?
My plan is to stay flexible, stay healthy, and trust in the universe.